why iam so arrogant?

hi i want to explain about experience in the past. lest goo
it is a good story ever,

Hello. everybody in the world has hobby like me , my hobby is travelling. I already went to most places like  went to waterfall,go to the jugle, and many others. and a few month ago i went to incredible place, it is unforgetable moment i think. firsly , its a bad dream .. but suddenly , i changed my mind .. its a great dreams. i climb mountain, you know, i cant describe how i feel at the time, i went with my friends, i ready to climb. you know? its might for the first time , but i brave to make my dreams came true. i try to makes my family trust about what i did? yah to be honest i did a little lie, ya im liar at the time.  but never mind bae. i arrived in the beautiful places ever. i felt so cold, yah 12 degrees i think i must wear my jacket. ok. at 6 o'clock i started to climb, sure im so nerveous , yaa my leader said " what the purpose we are climb? want to see the top of mountain? or just to know how felt climb a mountain? we are said .. we must finished. arrived at peak of mountain! ok you must believe youself ,you can gain  what you want, if you want to got something a miracle you should attempt to achieve. and dont thought only to yourself, our tim. mutual helping its great. togetherness"
ok we climb around eight hours. so hard to got something like this, to be honest i almost give up, but i thounght agains, what the purpose i went to here? even i lie to my family, i want to makes suprise to my family please i should not to give up. im still climb .. climb... i dont know why so long to arrived, so tired , need take a rest, even necessary to take a bath. cmonnnnn. i felt so satisfied you know, because i arrived at cadas . welcome to the real life. i must survive in here, i cant take bath, i must safe my water. the peak still so far, but my leader decision marker that our tim must take a rest in cadas to camping. and tomorrow morning we are started to clim the peak of mountain. ok im felt happy now, i can touch cloud its real . omg i sould not look up, in font of me its cloud.
i saw the real sunset ,i cannot close my eyes. stay to looked. and now so cold around 8 degrees , are u belief? i didn wear my jacket im like a abroad people lol. i sleep and i imagine what i did for tomorrow?
tomorrow morning, its a moment to make my dreams came true. we are started to clim the peak, at 6 o'clock huhhh so cold , im so excited. " if u want to get something, you mush attempt to gain" yah its different away. more hard. and now i cant imagine what my family felt if i felll down, im like a fool girls , suddenly i sick for my mothers, why i lie to her? but its over . i must finished. now nothing someone else can help me, i own now. my life depends on stone, maybe u think its crazy? ya stone its my life now. if i did mistakes, i choose false stone "the keyword is" pass away. i must trust where i stand, okk then i got new problems , i felt dehydration . our tim not brought  a water. i enough strong, my friends gave me spirit. and i now im difficult to breathe, because if we stand at the high place we more difficult to got oxygen. ok i arrived in shoulder of mountain  now, a few minutes i can got the peak.
.................................... never give uppppp!
yay finally i got it! its real life? its is dreams or just my imagine? noooo i arrived at the peak of moutain "puncak marapi 2891 mdpl" what i did? i never stop to crying . oh my Allah its perfect. i saw around me. miracle




dear my Allah. so sorry to all my mistakes, why im so arrogant? if u want me died today so easy to you to act. i always forgot to prayer , i forgot you everyday. i always judge someone even im hurting them. i always get agry if u give me problems. even i ever thought u not my god, you are cruel . My Allah i know you hear me know, thanks about all happiness to my life. in here im just a little girl between a big mountain in the world. so why im still arrogant god? kill me now , im not importaint to you. if u gave me a chance please forgive me my ALLAH.  gave me a chance to changed my life more nearby you. FROM MT MARAPI 2891 mdpl.

"jangan pernah kau menghitung, berapa kali seseorang meninggalkan dan mengecewakanmu, tapi hitunglah berapa kali engkau memimggalkan Allah , tapi dia tidak pernah meninggalkan mu."
my Allah bless us .